BLACK WOMAN - CROWDS

CROWDS



Hello to my dark skinned melanin queens, what we have on today's topic is on fears.
I am not ashamed to say that I hate and I'm afraid of the following things; Crowds, other girls, relationships, math (lol).
So let's start with my first fear, fear of crowds. As much as I talk the big talk, I'm a hypocrite when it comes to facing a large crowd. Worse is even if it's a group of about 6 to 7 people, I freeze up. Not like I mean to, I just don't know what gets over me, I shut down, power out, all the terms you can think of when referring to turning things off.
A recent real event that happened, I went to a little get together, thinking I was over my fear of crowds. When I got there,  I found about 6 people there. I could handle that, I thought. Then people started tropping in . Soon, it was close to 15 or 20. I know some of you would read this and be like, 'just 15-20 people ? I know they weren't much, but as soon as I realized the large number I started to shut down, my heart was racing , I knew I had to leave. And I did. Without having a slice of the beautiful cake I saw there .
My point in this is that, why do we black women find it hard to over come agoraphobia ? 
The first step they always say is: find the root of the problem. So down to my roots.
When I was younger I was bullied, I remember vividly being pushed down the stairs. A group of girls casting me aside for no apparent reason. Well that was then. But now those feelings of being pushed aside, and being talked about gets into my head. When I get to be in a crowd it's like everyone is about to do something hurtful to me.
Honestly I would be a hypocrite to give a solution. So I want to engage my lovely readers, what do you all think is the right solution to this problem. I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one in this. Let's help each other out.
My beautiful melanin queens let's stand for each other.



Aisha is a young writer. She writes to promote everything about the African woman. And hopes to bring glory to the continent.

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